she

there she sat
surrounded, yet alone
loved by many
more than she knew
fighting things
they never see
all these faces
hide the depths
what we see
is not what there is
honesty
is overrated
but undervalued
and still she sits
wanting more
and never knowing
what she can't see
or what's really there
always reaching
always searching
maybe one day
she finds the end

inside

all these things
i want to be heard
but i can't
i'll never say
it stays inside
and its just me

baptized

baptized
tonight
in the rain
walking
running
toward the future
arms outstretched
face wet
give me courage
to be bold
baptized
again

again

starting over
again
can i make it this time
how did i get
so far
is there room
still
for doubts
fears
questions
skeptics and cynics
will it ever be
enough
are you really there
or am i here
alone

caught

caught up in all this despair
drowning
hands in the air
swirling clouds
shouldn't be there
and i can't express myself
out loud
from whence the fear
that has seized me here
dormant from some layers i've left
writing is all i am
my voice still shakes
the earth quakes
silent
and still
no sound
to hear

new world

stepping
into a new world
unfamiliar
uncertain
will i make it?
can the dreams
the hopes
the ideas
in my head
ever become
reality?
is there room
a place for them
can i lose
the cynicism?
doubts
fears
and find faith
again
trust grace
that the world isn't lost
and move into
a new
world

sit awhile

we live and die
sit awhile
look for flowers
look for smiles
stop and rest
it's getting tired
hang the hours
just keep walking
through the dark
through the pain
somewhere's there
just beyond
hang on
sit awhile
nothing's there
that doesn't change
if you can wait
i can love
again