sunday, april 1, 2007

i sometimes wonder

Sometimes
I wonder why
they would call me selfish
if I left.
Sometimes
I wonder why
they aren't selfish
for wanting me to stay.
Sometimes
I wonder
if they really know
what it's like here.
Sometimes
I wonder
how I got here
in the first place
and why I was left
so alone.

fate?

Is there such thing as fate?
Am I doomed
to one end?
Is this the way
it's always going to be?
If it happens
does it matter
if it's now
or later?
Can that be my lot?
Am I
a soulless vessel
waiting until
I can wait no more?
Is it really wrong
or just hard?
Unforgivable
or irreconcilable?
Condemnatory
or confusing?
Have any of us had a choice?
Some regret
call it a mistake
but for others
was it not right?
not the only
viable option left?
Is this a demon rule
possession forever
we are shackled
and no longer our own
but taken by a force
we cannot defeat
that leads us down
and seals our fate?
Is there such thing as fate?