sunday, april 29, 2007

abandoned

my God my God
why have you
forsaken me
where have you gone?
why do you hide your eyes?
why are mine
not dry?
why do you
allow these demons
to torment me?
can you punish me
for what i do
to try to escape
what you leave
for me to fight
on my own?
been to hell
not sure i'm back
where are the angels?
and why do you leave
some of your children
out here
in this cold
dark
horror
inescapable
and deadly
where is your hand
and the grace
we desperately need
i reach for you
but cannot find you
can't you hear our cries?
do not look away anymore
acknowledge us
save us
show us you have not
abandoned us
help me

darkness

this darkness creeps
won't let me be
invades my soul
comes from somewhere
i don't know
and don't want to be
steals my joy
corrodes my hope
envelopes my life
closes my eyes
venomous aches
poisonous grief
grip my soul
hold me captive
and certain of nothing
reaching forever
unable to grasp anything
unable to see
the way out
taunts me with good days
destroys my future
they say it will get better
time will heal the wounds
but they haven't been here
they say it from the shore
not drowning in the depths
they can see
the other side
they have the time to wait
they say i am important
they say it will get better
i just don't know
that i can wait
that long
i can't wait
forever