thursday, july 19, 2007

don't let me fall

my God
i'm here
again
still
desperate
fighting within
wanting
wishing
hoping
never knowing
if any of it will come true
afraid to fall
again
wanting to reach out
but knowing it's wrong
not sure
where to go
what to do
waiting
is all i can do
the time passes
too slowly
yet too fast
because i still
am here
with nowhere to go
not knowing
what's next
wanting to move
but having to stay
it's here again
and i don't know
what to do
it won't let me be
but is it me?
or can i lose it
escape
heal
please
will i ever
make it through
be whole?
i don't want this
this can't be me
and it should pass
but for now
i need
grace
to make it through